Dirty Little Secret (the mistress who wants more)

I am his dirty little secret. As for every sex session, I keep it hidden back in the black corners of my mind.
Every time we talk it's well past late; whispering the rendezvous point for our next dirty date.
I wait for his lady to leave, let the phone ring once, then hang up; we hook up, go down, come up for air, I fix my hair and pretend not to care that he's not mine and in his world I do not exist.
I pretend that each secret kiss inches me closer to the granting of the wistful wish that I was more to him than just a piece of ass; more than the meek student in the back of his class with her hand raised toward outer space, silently pleading to replace the woman seen with him in public.
I long to be his lady; to spend more than sweaty hours between sheets with him.
To begin a conversation that has nothing to do with my thighs parting or me starting to cum.
When it's over I say to myself that I'm done.
I'll no longer be the one to give pieces of myself, to be an invisible notch on his belt; because I deserve more.
I am too wonderful to be muffled behind a closed door. Too great to pour myself until empty and leave no trace of me for true love to find.
But I remain blind to reason. Thoughts are merely unwritten treason, because I ignore my advice; scratch it away like hair lice.
I keep giving him coochie coupons that are valid in the wee hours of the night, because of the naive hope that one of them might get him to catch feelings, and we might become one instead of two; and I'd no longer do dirty deeds to appease dirty needs; you see the skeleton we've constructed is in my closet and I don't want to keep it.
I don't want to be his dirty little secret.

The Other Woman's thoughts (the mistress who doesn't give a damn)

If she be comin then I be leavin, cause I don't be needin no problems.
See I'm the other woman and I know my place.
I don't call him if I know she home. Don't get mad after we have sex and he leave me alone.
I have one objective; to give him pleasure. To make him sweat, to make his toes curl. To let him do all of the things to me that his girl is too conservative to do.
If she be near, then I be damn near invisible and he be miserable in that missionary position that seems to be a given whenever she give it up.
It's just his luck that he found a freak like me. A fine ass bi-sexual, who's impractical when it comes to sex.
I know the Kama Sutra like the back of my hand or like a poem I wrote.
I'm a deep throat, so I can take all of him in at once; far enough so that his balls are touchin my chin, so that if you looked you wouldn't know where he end and I begin.
If she mean everything to him then nothing matters to me; with the exception of how many times I can make him cum during one of our secret sex sessions.
As far as confessions go, none will ever pour from me; cause personally I feel like they're overrated. And if I let one loose then I won't be compensated with his sex any longer. It seems as if the stronger he says his love is for her, the harder he fucks me, so either way it goes, it benefits me.
I know my lack of discretion is enough enough to make you sick, but I fuck enough to make me orgasmicly rich.
None of those stereotypical standards will ever stick; cause yeah I'm givin up good pussy, but not without gettin good dick.
No feelings.
No love.
Emotions and a trick don't mix.
He be just another faceless dick.

Some Dick

Okay so you look at me and you see a respectable, pretty young lady. Prim and proper with my legs crossed; I don’t even stand out much. I could be lost in a crowd. All the while I want to scream out loud that “I JUST WANT SOME DICK!” Some Mandingo warrior, king ding-a-ling, that’ll make me scream out in ecstasy “FUCK ME HARDER!” I harbor this feeling more than California residents harbor Mexican immigrants. I want a man to get all up in it, a feeling that no amount of masturbation or dirty conversation can. I am so tired of using my hand. It doesn’t hit that spot. It’s not sufficient and it isn’t thoroughly satisfying. I want some dick that’ll have me crying from pleasure and a little bit of pain because I like that shit. I want some dick so bad I can taste it. And I’m not selfish, so I would taste it; but only if I could be certain that my skills wouldn’t be wasted on a two minute nigga’. Too many niggas say what they gon’ do, but when the panties come down they don’t come through. They just come quick; and then they have that stupid look on their face and I’m stuck with this space between my thighs throbbing, pulsating, while passion is fading and his dick is deflating from prematurely ejaculating. I want some dick. Some dick that’ll fill me to capacity and have me reaching for shit that ain’t even there. Some dick so good I’ll be begging a nigga to pull my hair, even though I just got it done. I want some dick that’ll put me to sleep before I get a chance to wrap my shit so it’ll look good in the morning. I want some dick that’ll have me cooking eggs, biscuits and grits in the morning. Some dick that’ll have me feeling like I been out whoring; even though I haven’t ‘cause I don’t get down like that, but is it so wrong to want some dick that I can feel in my heart when he hittin it from the back? And no, not for real, like in the physical sense; cause that would hurt and probably cause some internal bleeding; but what I mean is that sometimes I be needing some dick that makes me want to moan out “I love you” instead of “That was coo’, thanks for coming through; but don’t call me. I’ll text you.” I want some dick and I want it to be attached to a man who can kiss me like the elixir for life is in my tongue. I want some dick that’ll make me cum and not just get me wet; because yes, there is a difference! Only men out there who’ve hit it right can decipher the feelin’. Only they can tell when I’m not fakin’; when my right leg is reeeeeaaalllly shakin’. Incoherent words and moist moans melt from my mouth to his. I want some dick and don’t trip, I’m into the sensual love making and all that romantic foreplay shit; but I’m also a fan of fucking and freaking with my feet up in the air. And sometimes…well sometimes I just want to be licked like a stamp. Laid on my back and placed on a pedestal of pleasure so high that no mathematical tool can measure. I want some dick, and I don’t think I should have to feel bad about it; because good dick eases the mind. Good dick makes up for lost time. Good dick is the reason these hips know how to slow wind and grind till I get mine. I want some dick from a man who has rhythm. I want more than the back and forth motion cause that just doesn’t get it. I want to feel it in my thoughts when I’m daydreaming at work or in class. I want some dick that’ll fatten my ass, put a pep in my step and a switch in my stride. I want some dick that makes me feel like I died, went to heaven and then came back just to ride it again! I want some dick that’ll make me curse out my closest friend, like “Bitch you’re just jealous cause I’m gettin it in!” I want some dick that’s been tested for H.I.V., herpes, gonorrhea, warts and syphilis, cause I need some dick that won’t leave me burning or feeling sick and shit, ‘cause I’m yearning but I have my limit. All I want is some dick. No attachments or emotional hang up; just a sexual hook up that’ll give my skin that radiant “I just got some” glow. I want some dick with no stipulations or trials and tribulations. I want some dick so good that my pussy says “Congratulations! You have reached multiple orgasm” I want some dick that’ll make me spasm and wonder whether I’m cumming or having a seizure; some dick I can get when I’m busy or on my leisure. I want some available dick; the new and improved, scarcely yet professionally used, thick, juicy, put it on me papi tool, tantric dick; and I want it now.